It feels GREAT to be in love!

"I'm in love! I'm in love! And I don't care who knows it!"-Buddy the Elf couldn't have said it better. :P

I haven't written in a while, but here's an update of what's been going on. :)

My boyfriend, Robert,  and I have been together now for about 2 months, and honestly, I can't remember being happier...When I think of him, I lose my breath and when I'm with him, I'm with my best friend and everything fits perfectly in my little world. 

He and I have been having so much fun! Every weekend is something new...I met his family 2 weekends ago, and I absolutely fell in love with all of them, what a fun group of people! Robert says I fit in quite nicely :D (Yay!). 

This past weekend he invited me up to Hartwell lake with a few of his school friends, and we had such a blast! 3 days of just floating around, watching movies, and eating some amazing food...couldn't get any better. The weekend was finished out with Step Up 3D (which was awesome!) chicken fajitas, sleeping and snuggling, and church. 

I was away from him for 2 weeks while I was in Utah and I was having a great time out there with my family and friends, but for someone I am used to seeing only on the weekends, I was SO homesick for him! When I finally saw him again, I couldn't have been happier! 

I can't explain it, but it's like everything that he and I have both been through in the past year has brought us even closer together. I've known him for  about 4 years now and we had about a year and a half time frame where we didn't talk and during that time frame, we both have had experiences that neither one of us would ever want to go through again, but because of them, he and I became best friends and about 4 months later started dating. 

Every little kiss, every little sweet thing he says or does, every hug and every smile he gives me, my heart does a somersault. The more I see him and talk to him, the more we get to know one another, the more I fall in love with him. He's who I want to be with...him and only him. 

Ha, I know if Rob were to read this his response would be "Blahh" :P But this is my response to him, "You looove that I love you so much! So....deal with it!" ;) 

I could honestly go on and on about how much he's helped me and how happy he makes me, but I guess I'll spare ya. :) 

Anyways, as for any other updates, I hope to move in the next 5 months, so keep your fingers crossed that everything works out. Work is still work...school starts back up the end of next month (OH! better get my classes registered! 0_o) 3 more on campus classes then the rest is just online :D I hope that works out 

Anyways, I'm off to bed now! :) Another Monday........ yay....

The Power of True and Everlasting Love

Tonight I had the privilege to speak with my branch president. He asked me to bare my testimony on how I feel about our Savior Jesus Christ...

There is no doubt in my mind that our Savior loves us. When I think of my Father in Heaven, I know that he doesn't want anything more than for his children to come home to him and say "I'm finally home" and embrace Him in a warm hug. My brother, Jesus Christ, went through a lot for my exaltation. He made it possible for us to repent and become completely pure again in order to be with our Father in Heaven once again. When I think of all the pain and all the suffering he did just for me alone, I can't help but feel a pure, deep and appreciative love for Him. My agony and my grief if nothing compared to what he went through! Because of him, I can wipe my slate completely clean and move on and live my life without worry and shame.


Can you imagine going through the worst agony possible, just so others don't have to go through it as well later on?

I know I can't.

When I think of my Savior, I think of how I feel when I see my dad. I only see my dad about once a year, but his hugs are worth the wait. I think of my life and how hard it is, but then I think of the end result. My life is like that long plane ride to Utah..I'm so eager, but I know that if I'm patient, the plane will land in Salt Lake City with my dad waiting for me, arms wide open and awaiting my hug. I know that I can't rush things in life. Life is a process, we are made to make mistakes and then repent and try to do better...if we are patient and do as we're told, our Father in Heaven and our loving brother, our Savior, Jesus Christ will be waiting for us, arms wide open and awaiting our hug.

If we are repentant and are humble and follow the teachings of the gospel, life is SO much easier..and in the end, everything falls into perfect place and our eternal result is something that won't just be something to look forward to, but something to obtain and cherish.


After I bore my testimony, I was asked to read a talk from this past General Conference...It's by Elder Holland, and there are some things I just felt I really needed to share with those who missed G.C. this past April..

Place No More for the Enemy of My Soul

By Elder Jeffrey R. Holland Of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles

Love comes with open hands and open heart; lust comes with only an open appetite.

Whether we be single or married, young or old, let’s talk for a moment about how to guard against temptation in whatever form it may present itself. We may not be able to cure all of society’s ills today, but let’s speak of what some personal actions can be.

• • Above all, start by separating yourself from people, materials, and circumstances that will harm you. As those battling something like alcoholism know, the pull of proximity can be fatal. So too in moral matters. Like Joseph in the presence of Potiphar’s wife,just run—run as far away as you can get from whatever or whoever it is that beguiles you. And please, when fleeing the scene of temptation, do not leave a forwarding address.
  
• • Acknowledge that people bound by the chains of true addictions often need more help than self-help, and that may include you. Seek that help and welcome it. Talk to your bishop. Follow his counsel. Ask for a priesthood blessing. Use the Church’s Family Services offerings or seek other suitable professional help. Pray without ceasing. Ask for angels to help you.
  
• • Along with filters on computers and a lock on affections, remember that the only real control in life is self-control. Exercise more control over even the marginal moments that confront you. If a TV show is indecent, turn it off. If a movie is crude, walk out. If an improper relationship is developing, sever it. Many of these influences, at least initially, may not technically be evil, but they can blunt our judgment, dull our spirituality, and lead to something that could be evil. An old proverb says that a journey of a thousand miles begins with one step,so watch your step.
  
• • Like thieves in the night, unwelcome thoughts can and do seek entrance to our minds. But we don’t have to throw open the door, serve them tea and crumpets, and then tell them where the silverware is kept! (You shouldn’t be serving tea anyway.) Throw the rascals out! Replace lewd thoughts with hopeful images and joyful memories; picture the faces of those who love you and would be shattered if you let them down. More than one man has been saved from sin or stupidity by remembering the face of his mother, his wife, or his child waiting somewhere for him at home. Whatever thoughts you have, make sure they are welcome in your heart by invitation only. As an ancient poet once said, let will be your reason.
  
• • Cultivate and be where the Spirit of the Lord is. Make sure that includes your own home or apartment, dictating the kind of art, music, and literature you keep there. If you are endowed, go to the temple as often as your circumstances allow. Remember that the temple arms you “with [God’s] power, … [puts His] glory … round about [you], and [gives His] angels … charge over [you].”And when you leave the temple, remember the symbols you take with you, never to be set aside or forgotten.
  

 Most people in trouble end up crying, “What was I thinking?” Well, whatever they were thinking, they weren’t thinking of Christ. Yet, as members of His Church, we pledge every Sunday of our lives to take upon ourselves His name and promise to “always remember him.”So let us work a little harder at remembering Him—especially that He has “borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows … , [that] he was bruised for our iniquities … ; and with his stripes we are healed.” Surely it would guide our actions in a dramatic way if we remembered that every time we transgress, we hurt not only those we love, but we also hurt Him, who so dearly loves us. But if we do sin, however serious that sin may be, we can be rescued by that same majestic figure, He who bears the only name given under heaven whereby any man or woman can be saved. When confronting our transgressions and our souls are harrowed up with true pain, may we all echo the repentant Alma and utter his life-changing cry: “O Jesus, thou Son of God, have mercy on me."

After I read this talk, I said to myself, "This is exactly what I needed to read.." We shouldn't let those little things get the best of us. We are stronger than the adversary, and with our faith and with Heavenly Father's strength, we can overcome any obstacle placed before us. We just need to take those precautionary steps and not walk off the path that is layed out before us. We need to keep our heads held high and keep looking forward. Just don't ever lose faith in the ones who love us the most, our Father and our Savior.

Okay, well there's my little thought of the day :)

I really do love y'all...thank you for being that extra strength to me in my low times and helping me get back up and seeing the light. I couldn't have asked for better friends. <3

Thought of the day

The Deadly Sin of Lust

“Why is lust such a deadly sin? Well, in addition to the completely Spirit-destroying impact it has upon our souls, I think it is a sin because it defiles the highest and holiest relationship God gives us in mortality—the love that a man and a woman have for each other and the desire that couple has to bring children into a family intended to be forever.”

Jeffrey R. Holland, “Place No More for the Enemy of My Soul,” Ensign, May 2010, 44

Jeffrey R. Holland was exactly right. I found this on lds.org under the YSA thought of teh day lol I know, I'm so clever...

Having a lustful heart just gets people in trouble. I have had several relationships where lust and physical attraction has been a leading cause to why we got in so much trouble and why we wound up breaking up or having troubles in our friendships.

So, from here on out, that will NOT be the case. I want things to be right, and I want to take things slow and be patient...

It's totally worth the wait! I know it is! This is why I've decided to be strong and do what I know what is right.

Now as most of you know, I have a terrible time being patient, but this past Sunday in Relief Society in a famliy ward in Augusta, we talked about Pres. Uchtdorf's talk from the Priesthood session of this past conference on having patience. I have had more patience lately then I have EVER had..and I know it's because I've prayed for help time and time again and Heavenly Father has been listening to my prayers. Instead of constantly wanting to jump from one thing to another, I have a feeling that what I've been so patient for and will continue to be patient for, is something worth the wait. 

His whole talk on patience was so good....but I'm just going to quote one segment of it, so bear with me...

The Path of Patience



Nevertheless, it is not a quick fix or an overnight cure.


A friend of mine recently wrote to me, confiding that he was having a difficult time keeping his testimony strong and vibrant. He asked for counsel.


I wrote back to him and lovingly suggested a few specific things he could do that would align his life more closely with the teachings of the restored gospel. To my surprise, I heard back from him only a week later. The essence of his letter was this: “I tried what you suggested. It didn’t work. What else have you got?”


Brothers and sisters, we have to stay with it. We don’t acquire eternal life in a sprint—this is a race of endurance. We have to apply and reapply the divine gospel principles. Day after day we need to make them part of our normal life.


Too often we approach the gospel like a farmer who places a seed in the ground in the morning and expects corn on the cob by the afternoon. When Alma compared the word of God to a seed, he explained that the seed grows into a fruit-bearing tree gradually, as a result of our “faith, and [our] diligence, and patience, and long-suffering.”6 It’s true that some blessings come right away: soon after we plant the seed in our hearts, it begins to swell and sprout and grow, and by this we know that the seed is good. From the very moment we set foot upon the pathway of discipleship, seen and unseen blessings from God begin to attend us.


But we cannot receive the fulness of those blessings if we “neglect the tree, and take no thought for its nourishment.”7


Knowing that the seed is good is not enough. We must “nourish it with great care, that it may get root.”8 Only then can we partake of the fruit that is “sweet above all that is sweet, and … pure above all that is pure” and “feast upon this fruit even until [we] are filled, that [we] hunger not, neither shall [we] thirst.”9


Discipleship is a journey. We need the refining lessons of the journey to craft our character and purify our hearts. By patiently walking in the path of discipleship, we demonstrate to ourselves the measure of our faith and our willingness to accept God’s will rather than ours."

This applies to our daily lives, we must be patient and do what is asked of us, and in return, we will be incredibly blessed.

We can't just go throughout our lives wishing and hoping for things NOW, we need to strive and work hard for it.

I'm not really sure why I'm going on and on about patience, I guess it's just because even in these past few months I have seen the blessings that being patient has brought me...So many!!

Anyways, I love the gospel, and I love everything it is to me...if given the chance again, I would choose to be a Latter-day saint member and do it all over again (well,just the good stuff :P ). Don't ever take our Heavenly Father's love for granted, he knows what He's doing and knows what is best for his children (us). This I KNOW to be true.


And, on that note...have a great day everyone!

I love y'all!!!

June...a month of wonder

Why hello hello hello!! :D

Happy SUMMER!!!!

Last update was all about pollen...today's subject is on grass allergies! LOL! juuuust kidding. But, it is true...I have been tested and I am allergic to certain types of grass, weird, right??

Anyways, life just seems to be getting better and better. I know that I am truly blessed and sometimes I feel like I'm being spoiled, buuut there are absolutely no complaints on that!

There have been those rough patches where I thought things wouldn't turn out so good...for example, I had this huuuuge project due that was worth 40% of my grade in Business Law..one of our project partners dropped out, literally just fell off the face of this planet, and so a 3 person job was narrowed down to 2 people the last 3 weeks into it. Well, I told my other partner that I'd be happy with a 70 and she agreed...turns out, ours was THE bomb and our teacher was so impressed with it, he kept it to present to other classes and we got a 99% (he only gives 100s to PERFECTION..and ours was beyond it, but again, NO COMPLAINTS HERE).

Another example..my job is all about numbers numbers numbers. If my boss doesn't see a steady flow of new patients or consulations brought in by me, he starts to weigh his options. So he put me to a challenge to memorize this marketing script we have to know..I KNEW it but had a terrible way of proving it. At our office meetings, I'd freeze up and start saying off the wall stuff and not getting my "facial expressions" right...in other words, I didn't seem sincere enough when I said, "I'm so sorry to hear that." I can't help that I smile ALL the time! So Dr. Ross told me to study study study because my job depended on it. For the past week I was So worried! But after a lot of practice, lots of praying, and confidence boosting friends, I finally proved that I could be a good marketer! Dr. Ross called me into his office and we roll played and he said that he was sooo  impressed that he had goose bumps! He said that I hit that one out of the ball park! He was super proud of me, and that means a LOT from Dr. Ross because he never says stuff like that!

So there ya go! I got a good grade when I thought I'd fail and I got to keep my job when I thought I'd be let go! Phew!! What a week!

And for those of you who were worried about my salvation, no worries! I'm back to church all the way. No more playing games and no more crazy cycles. I'm in it for the long run and I have no doubt in my mind that there is any other path in my life that I'd rather be on. I can honestly say, "been there, done that" and NO THANK YOU, I'm happy with where I stand. It also helps when you have those people in your life that are such amazing examples and who are there to support you in all you do. I fortunately have a lot of those kind of people in my life, I honestly think I have the best support system EVER! My friends and family are pretty much amazing and I know I can always count on them for anything.

Now for anything else in my life, just assume it's great. haha! I'd say more...buuuuut...everything else that's great is still in progress haha.

However, I will tell you this...I FINALLY get a NEW bed!!!! :D I'm going to finally get rid of my awful ancient bed and get a pillow top mattress set...Thursday!! Yes! Only 2 more days with a bed from a nightmare...it'll be going in my visitor room ;) hahaha! juuust kidding. But seriously :P

OH! And watch out my favorite U-tards, I mean, Utahians...I'm coming to town on July 23rd!! I'll be there for 2 weeks visiting my dad and stepmom and family, and I am ready to have some FUN!!! I am SOOOO excited!! I definately need a get-away. Possibly a Tim McGraw concert, a day at the lake, a stroll through downtown SLC..a trip to the mountains? Yeah, I'm ready for it!! Wish I could stay longer, that's for sure! Knowing me though, I'll be homesick for the 98 degree 100% humidity state of Georgia at the two week mark and ready to come home. Good thing I have a job that I love so I don't despise coming back to work.

Anyways, as much as I know y'all enjoy reading forever long blogs, I think I'll end it here with this....

Patience IS a virtue, and no matter how much you want something NOW, just know that it WILL be worth the wait (even if it has to be much much much later...!)


And that's all folks!!! ;)

It's Pretty Amazing...

It's a beautiful thing when you can wake up with a big smile on your face.

These past few weeks, my life has been steady, for once! Steady job, steady school work, steady sleeping habits, steady steady steady...well, with the exception of my eating habits :P ( Easter came around and threw me off track with all that delicious chocolate, so not so steady!!)

I finally got hired full-time at my chiropractic marketing job that I've been shakily working for the past year. Now instead of just working one day a week for 3 hours, I'm working 8-9 hour days, 4-5 days a week. FINALLY!  I always knew I enjoyed the work, but I never really realized how much I would love it! I get paid to interact with people and socialize and make appointments and then set up health events, SO fun! So let's just say, I'm a happy camper when it comes to work!

School on the other hand, it's not hard at all..just annoying at times, but really, it's just like a hobby to me. I've always enjoyed school, so now having school work gives me something to do on my down time...sad, I know...getting excited about homework. haha!! Now if I were extremely stressed about getting straight As all the time, now that would be another story...but I'm not worried, I'm pretty much just going to school to say that I'm going. ;)

Well, now that I have a full time 9am-6pm job, my social life has pretty much gone down the drain, but honestly, I don't mind it so much...going out every night was getting pricey (physically and emotionally)! Besides that, I'm really trying to get out of the habits I've built up this past year. I've realized that this "being a good Latter-day Saint" example is going to be a lot harder than some people portray it to be. But I love the church, and I want  to be that good example and be happy, really really happy!

It's pretty amazing how when you put the Lord first in your life and push all wordly things aside, how everything falls perfectly into place, like a puzzle.

I love it!

I've also realized, when it comes to people in my life, the ones who mean the most and who always seem to be there for me in the hardest times, when I need someone the most, are the ones who put God first. They know what it is to feel unconditional love and care for someone. Even though they might not be related,or in some instances not even know a person, they still feel love and concern for them. Those are the kind of friends you want to keep in your life for ever. They're the genuine friends, the ones you know you can always depend on for moral support, no matter what.

Knowing all this, that things can work out so great when you have faith, has brought a whole new light to my life...or rather, the light that I had blocked out that is now seeping through. :) Why block something out that's so beautiful, why not just open your shades wiiiide open and let that light shine into your life!

So there was my spiritual and happy insight for the day....now onto more serious matters...

POLLEN!!!!

That yellow substance that blankets the outside of your car, as well as the inside...it's of the DEVIL!! hahaha I cracked my windows just slightly today before I went into work, thinking it would keep my car from becoming a hot box....then to my astonishment, the inside of my car is as yellow as the outside! Good thing I'm not dealthy allergic, or I may have died on my way to my health screening....!  Ugh, my nose is tickling and slightly clogged due to pollen-itus! Curse you Mother Nature for all your millions of trees in the state of Georgia!

;)

Well, anyways, I better start doing what I'm getting paid to do...which right now isn't really much since there aren't any customers in this little shop....that's the downside of marketing. Sometimes you got takers, but most times you don't. I just need to keep telling myself to stay positive...stay positive...be optimistic.....positive attitude is KEY....  haha

Until next time....love y'all!!

I just need to get this off my chest.

It's a Friday night, what else to do other than get on here and BLOG!

Well, I feel like I have a lot on my plate lately..even though to most people I need to stop my complaining and man up, but it's just overwhelming to me.

I've been dating this guy Henry now for 3 months...he's really sweet, adorable puppy eyes, soft hair and great skin..I love being in his arms at night, he pretty much can make me melt just with one little look. We have some pretty epic chemistry, especially when it comes to reading each others thoughts on food and what to do for fun, the stars pretty much align perfectly when it comes to us having a good time. He gets along with my friends, as I get a long with his friends, we all have a great time together. Now here's the thing, I was asked to look into my future and try to imagine Henry and I together in the long run...I wasn't seeing it. How do I tell someone that's as great as him, "Hey, you're just dating material...I don't see us together in the long run."

A friend of mine, who knows a great deal about my dating history, told me that I need to be fair and just break up with him soon so feelings don't become stronger. I have the bad habit of dating someone and from the very beginning, looking for an escape strategy....always. However, I like to see where things go and see if he's the right one or not. My mom has always told me "If things aren't as you had hoped they would be, emotion wise, after 6 weeks, then things aren't gonna get any better, get out while you're still in shallow waters."

I told Henry from the very beginning that I was afraid of commitment right now because I'm not looking for anything serious. Granted, IF that right guy DID come along and things were so perfect for us, I would probably change my mind. However, I knew from the very beginning Henry wasn't that Mr. Right. So why date him? He's not my Mr. Right, but he's my Mr. Right Now...he's safe and I enjoy being with him, but what do I do when his feelings become stronger and mine just continue to stay the same? Should I bite the bullet and go ahead and tell him exactly how I feel?

I've told him that I plan on going back to church, and that means that everything we came into our relationship with, will end. All my bad habits, I plan on eliminating them from my life and starting new once again. He knows what that entails, and I think he knows that I'm serious. I just hate using the church as my way out...But if I really think about it, if I were to have decided not to go the church route once again, I would probably decide to stay with him longer, merely for the fact of "Why not?". I am a weak soul, though, and I give into temptations extremely easily. Henry brings temptations that I'm trying to surpass...his habits and his behaviors are ones that I'm trying to avoid. So, the term "Stand ye in Holy Places" can also pertain to who I'm dating as well...something to think about.

Wow, I really didn't intend on writing this much about my relationship struggle, but that's one thing that's been on my mind a lot recently...and I know I haven't been fair to Henry. I've been so distant and moody with him lately, he doesn't deserve it.

Another thing that's been on my mind is something that I've been kind of arguing within myself would be my career, or lack of. Now, I know I'm only 21, but to some people, success is only a grasp away at this age. I'm a server at Outback steakhouse, I love it, don't get me wrong, but it gets stressful not having a steady job. I am also a chiropractic marketer, who only works 3 hours a day, one day a week. Ridiculous, right?? I go to school one day a week for two classes for a diploma that's not even really necessary for my line of work. So, why is it so necessary that I go to school? To prove that I can finish something? I have held myself back from so many things because I'm going to school part time and working a job that has no future...hmm....

Now, I have been given the opportunity to do some modeling...I have been told I have a "strong look" and I could make it in the industry. However, in order to even be looked at by the big names in modeling, paying a large amount of money is always involved. Gotta spend that money to make the money, right? Well, I've never wanted to be a model, unless it was for hair or make up or CoverGirl or something. What are the odds of all odds that I'd be chosen to do any of that kind of modeling? I have absolutely no desire to model lingerie, bikinis, or do any form of runway...so why would I spend hundreds of dollars on a "chance"??

This guy, Steve Fox, wants me to let him know by this coming Monday whether or not I am going to pay $400 in advance to come to a convention in Orlando, Florida. He says that all the big names will be there, Trump, Next, Elite,etc, and I'd have a chance in signing with one of their labels. IF one of them were to choose me, I'd have to drop my life here in Georgia, leave my friends (well, what little true friends I really have here), stop going to school for possibly ever, give up my job that makes me happiest, and stop eating whatever I want whenever I want. I would have to live how and where they want me to live, party how they want me to party, etc etc. Every morning I would look at myself in the mirror and have to pick out all my flaws and try my best to change who I am, just so I would continue to be that model the agency would want me to be...I'm sorry, that's not my life. I think when he calls me on Monday, I will tell him that it's not worth it for me to go work my butt off  and stress at work for the next week to make $400 to just hand him for a "chance" at becoming something I have no desire to become.

It's funny, this morning I was SO pumped to go to that convention, then it wasn't until I was at Outback I got a sour attitude. Every thing that was in front of my face looked so delicious..I just wanted to nibble on everything just because I knew I shouldn't. Then I thought about it all night long, "I will only be able to eat what the agencies and trainers tell me to eat." My night was ruined...finally by the end of my shift, I came to a conclusion that if eating whatever I like makes me happiest, then there was NO way I was going to give that up. :P I am a proud food addict....okay, maybe not proud, but you get the point. At least I know that if I eat something I know is fattening, I can go to the gym and work it off, no problem...and that's the mentality I want to keep...I have always kept this motto "Live your life the way it makes you happiest." And if working at a low-budget, yet fun job, eating anything I want, living where ever I want, and doing anything I want, is what makes me happiest, then so be it! :)


Wow, that feels so great to get all of that off my chest! I mean, I may be broke as a joke, but at least I'm happy and I'm making it! That's a lot more to say than most people my age ;).

Okay, well now I'm tired, but to whoever reads my blogs, even it is just Jess, thanks! (Love you girl!!)

Until next time...

We're all our own kind of masterpiece

Imagine someone taking their whole life's work and at last minute deciding to take that whole piece and try to transform it into something completely different. Something that has been so defined, that anyone knew exactly what it was just by looking at it, and then deciding "I think I want to change and try something new".

You're a writer, you have spent months and months coming up with the perfect story line for your characters, what they're like, where they live, how they grew up, their dreams, their ambitions, what their life long goals are, and so on. Then, right before you decide to send it off to the editor, the night before, you throw the whole story line in the garbage and attempt to start from scratch, this time attempting to spice it up a little. You create characters who have no moral background, no standards, no ambitions, nothing really going for them except fun and cheap thrills. You want them to be the kind of characters who go to parties and do drugs and just live the worldly dream. By the end of the night, you have this rough draft of what you think is the perfect story line. However, when you read back through it, there is no story line at all, no plot, nothing. In the end, you've thrown away what really mattered most to you and have replaced it with something meaningless.
In life, you have a choice to write your own story line. You can either be the author who wants a good story, with a good moral ending that makes people happy to have read it, or you can be the author that just writes for entertainment, not really intending for the reader to really get anything out of it except a few laughs.

I want to be able to look back at my life and say "I've done good, I am satisfied with what I have accomplished." For so long I have pushed aside my first draft and tried writing and re-writing my story line, only to realize that nothing will suffice until I have written something worth saving, something I'm proud of. When I write my story, I want to be able to get something out of it, not just a thought of "yep, that was a fun ride..."

So, tonight as I'm typing up this lovely blog, I am making a promise to myself: No more pointless rough drafts and waste-of-time story boards. I have spent my whole life trying to make sense of things, only to find out that when I went searching for my heart and the truth, it was right there in the original story line along.

You only live once, now it's your turn to flip the page, and be the artist of your own masterpiece.